I'm Pretending

This isn't bothering me half as much as it really is. I'm miserable.

Lame.

So I haven't posted in a while. I had to have my appendix removed a couple nights ago and I'm still feeling pretty whack. I had to cancel my tour in Colorado so I'm sorry to all my fans there. The doctors won't let me be on the plane. I'm not supposed to work out for two weeks either. I'm going to be so fat after this...

Leave me some love.

TURKEY DAY

It was so good to see my family today. I have an event the day of the next family get together and I'm going to be missing out. That's the life though...

I'm taking a 5 day trip to Denver on Tuesday. I'm really excited. Going on tour is always a blast. I'm bummed out about flying though. Not my cup of tea.

I can finally listen to Christmas music now and not feel like a tool bag. *NSYNC Christmas album non stop now.

Twilight

Just saw the movie.

Book was better.

Any thoughts?

Never give up...

This video is the most inspirational thing I have seen in a long time. It's not so much the service that gets me, its the maturity of the boy and his advice at the end.

Thank You Perez for posting this

I Hate Jiminy Cricket

When I do something wrong, I hate that I know I did. I don't really care, but for some reason my body makes me feel guilty. I can rationalize with myself and say that I don't feel bad and I didn't do anything wrong, but that stupid part of my stomach that gets tight and makes me feel like I messed up is really ticking me off.

2nd Miley Post...

Earlier this week I was like "Hey Miley, Relax!" in regards to her interview on Ellen. Now I'm like "Hey Miley, You're so cool." I legitimately want to be friends with this girl. (Happy Birthday by the way) Her AMA performance... There was a CAR. You think this is the Grammy's Cyrus??

Check it out. It'll probably get removed soon so get on it.

She is so cool. Like, so. I can't wait to collab with her on my album.

ABC Family is Ghetto.

The movies they are showing right now are not Christmas movies. They're so fake.

25 Days of Christmas needs to begin so we can get some real holiday ishh...

Miley

Don't get me wrong. I think she's so cool.

Just watch this interview.

I can't wait

I'm being so good and not illegally downloading Brit's new album. Don't leave a comment telling me to just do it. I will not cave.

So I Saw the Sunrise

I read a lot. Every sunrise means something. I wonder what this sunrise means for me.

I thought I hated airports, but I guess I just hate flying. They really aren't that bad when you're not getting on a plane.

I'm going back to bed now because I don't really know what else to do...

This is So Weird.

I'm awake right now at a time a I usually go to bed. I have to drive my little brother to the airport and I went to bed at 10pm. I woke up on my own. So bizarre. I'm excited to see the sun rise. I haven't done that since last spring during finals week. We weren't studying, just realizing if what we didn't learn all semester.

R.I.P.

Apparently Paris Hilton and Benji Madden broke up.

Miss them...

Really?

My apartment has a half bathroom and a full bathroom. The toilet in the full bathroom broke. I don't know why but I'm freakishly good at plumbing, however this will not help in this situation. This toilet was installed with a state of the art power flush...aka it's unfixable unless the power flush company comes. I mean, I know living the dream means you have the best of everything... but did I really need a super toilet?

Anyway... resolution to the story - Toilet is out of commission for about a week. Sweet.

By The Way...

This is what I meant last post... Sometimes I hang out with the Cheetah Girls...

AM Stations Are Underrated.

"Ooh, Ah Just turn it up
We make it hot from the streets to the club
Ooh, Ah we turn it up
Como fuego, fuego"

That sums up the night. I'll add some pics in a later post for all you curious people out there...

hmm

Feeling sorry for yourself doesn't get you anywhere. Realize everything happens for a reason. A year from now you'll realize why.

I didn't want to go to the high school I went to. I applied to a different school and got wait listed. I went to my second choice and if I had went with my first, I'm sure I never would have picked up a microphone. The paths you take are meant to open your eyes, not to shut them. Re-Evaluate what's upsetting you right now. It's not that bad.

I heard a quote. Basically what it said was, yeah, there are starving children in India, but that doesn't change the fact that you're not okay. People may have it worse then you, but who is anyone to say that you don't have it bad. Good things will happen to good people.

I know you don't read this, but this is for you. I want everything to be okay. I want you to know even though I'm not there, and I pretend I'm gone, I'm still a breath away. I hit ignore when you call because I'm scared. It's easier that you stopped calling. Just remember even though you have it bad right now, and our paths split, doesn't mean I don't think about you. I don't want to compare you to the starving children in India because I know you have it worse.

Shh...

“Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead.”
-Benjamin Franklin

annddd sleep.

I used to go see this hypnotist show in Providence every now and then. Homeboy would hypnotize me and make me sing in front of the audience. It was really funny, because the hypnotist knew I could sing, but every show, he would pretend he didn't know who I was. One time he told me I was Kelly Clarkson. I sang better then she does though...

I've been dreaming a lot lately, and I don't know why. My dreams have been crazy, almost real. That's what made me think of the hypnotist. I started writing down a dream log, but then I found an article online saying that was bad news. It can confuse the brain if you write down a dream after it happens. You won't remember if it was real or not in the future. Pretty intense, huh? Maybe I should throw away the paper I wrote last night's dream on. I don't want to think I was held at gun point when I'm 30.

(that last sentence had a misplaced modifier. it's not class though, so i can write how i want)

It's Coming.

I'm writing the next biggest pop song in the world. Be ready.

Am I Dreaming?

I have such vivid dreams. They kept me up last night. I woke up and felt like I didn't sleep at all, and I feel like my dreams were me still being awake. It's hard for me to decide what is reality and what is mental images strewn together in my unconscious mind.

I hate nightmares. Especially when I don't realize it's just a dream. My sleep last night turned into emotions and feelings that did not go well with my state of relaxation. Have you ever had a dream so real that you swore it was happening? It makes me wonder if I actually did live in that state of dream. Maybe the dream was real to an extent...

I'm crazy.

...amy whinehouse status.

Taylor Swift's

new album has a secret message in the lyrics. Check it out.

I NEEDED TO TYPE THIS

SO FUNNY. This girl was just talking to me about DJ AM and Travis Barkers plane crash. She was like... I don't understand why all the normal people on the plane died but the celebrities lived. This is the best quote... "I know celebrities have this thing around them that protects them, but like really?"

I loved that.

Only One

Have you ever been in a room full of people and have someone talking to you? I mean a big room, like an auditorium, or a full classroom. Have you ever felt like that person was talking to you... like nobody else in the room was there? Did it send chills up and down your body, wondering if that person knew exactly what was going on with you? Did it bring you to tears, terrifying you? Did you wonder if anybody else felt the same way, or were you certain this entire speech, the words and sentences, were meant just for you to hear?

That day was the most influential day of my life... and I always pretend it didn't happen, just so I don't think I'm selling myself short... I don't know why, out of all nights, this is keeping me awake. Maybe it's because I knew that person was right. That person was talking to me. That person knows.

Frankie Says RELAX

Many people know me as a guy who freaks out a lot and sweats the small stuff. I've noticed lately a large improvement on my behalf. I lost my phone today. I found it eventually, but when it was lost, I didn't freak out. Not typical of myself... It was actually kind of relaxing.

I've been relaxing a lot lately. The season changing makes the sun's rays so infrequent that I almost want to wake up at 5am to enjoy the rays. Almost.

I walked through leaves today. I took the long path and walked through millions of small piles of leaves. The crunching and shuffling was such a pleasing sound. I felt very transcendentelistic. I'm not really sure that's a word.

Love AM

I'm going to work tomorrow at the AM radio station I work for. Did you like the play on words in the blog post title. I'm clever.

My little brother fell asleep on my couch in the living room tonight. Don't you hate when you fall asleep in weird places? He's gonna wake up and have no idea where he is. I guess thats what happens when you study organic chemisty... you fall asleep.

Katy Perry

is so cool. I would enjoy a jam session with her. Maybe record a track with her...

I'm not hungry but it's dinner time and if I don't eat now I won't have time to eat later. Such a conundrum. I'm just exhausted from the whole thing...

Fortune Cookie

"Every artist was at first an amateur."

I have an Issue

JT and Britney sang with Madonna the other night at her concert. If you remember, however, Madonna completely dissed Brit when she dropped the Kabbalah ish. Now they're friends again.

Divas...

In the Mother Land

It's nice to take a break from tour to keep it real. It's good to be off the bus.

I want to be a thug again like last night. I think this Rock Star has a new image.

holla

Success

I thoroughly enjoyed the party.

I really like laughing. A lot. Thank you tonight for providing me with that.

Hi Hater

I'm about to head out a Thug Life themed party. I'm stoked. Holla atcha boy.

XBOX

So... I'm not big into the whole video game scene. But tonight I became a little obsessed...

It's a Thursday night (Friday morning) and one of my brothers and I were strolling campus circa 1am and due to misty weather conditions, headed indoors after causing some minor havoc. The XBOX was there and the glowing green light was calling me.

I just want to say that I was just SpiderMan and saved the world from nuclear destruction with my partner The Thing. You're welcome.

♥ Music

I just got this game from harristruth.blogspot.com. You pick your favorite music artist from each letter of the Alphabet. I'm ready for this...

A: Aly & AJ (Mostly because I met them. We're friends)
B: Britney Spears (duh.)
C: Carrie Underwood (prob the only country artist on this)
D: Dashboard Confessional (emo love)
E: Enrique Iglesias (me gusta la musica)
F: The Fray (they sing to me)
G: Goo Goo Dolls (black balloon changed my life)
H: Hellogoodbye (holaadios)
I: Imogen Heap (what a weirdo, huh?)
J: Justin Timberlake (why do Prince and Michael Jackson keep trying to be like him)
K: Katy Perry (buy the album)
L: Lady GaGa (best new artist)
M: Miley Cyrus (she's such a punk)
N: *NSYNC (obv.)
O: O.A.R. (of a revolution!)
P: P!NK (amazing live)
Q: Queen (not Latifah)
R: Rascall Flatts (fast cars and freedom)
S: Savage Garden (they have amazing albumS)
T: Tyler Hilton (Chris Keller)
U: Usher (-the new album)
V: The Veronicas (so Hot Topic it hurts)
W: Willa Ford (remember her? she wants to be BAD)
X: ...not a real letter.
Y: Yellow Card (i've been to ocean avenue. it was near cherry street)
Z: Zac Efron (love HSM soundtrack)

whoaaaaa

I'm Over It

Just like Katharine McPhee says...

I don't want to be in class anymore. I'm ready to be living my life. I can't wait for winter break. I feel I'll accomplish a lot in those few weeks. I'm ready to make things start happening...

I'm sitting in a class now and reading about fairies. Really? Is this what my life is about right now. Am I really going to be tested on mythical creatures that live in the forrest? I'm over this Rumplestiltskin ish. So lame.

The skull on the top of this page scares me a little bit. I wonder who's skull it is? Maybe a fairy found in it a tree...

I love this new layout.

It does need a little work though...

Hey Ya'll

So I've relocated and my new URL is right here. Make sure you switch your bookmarks from collegerockstar.blogspot.com to SolidRockStarStatus.blogspot.com. It's a new age. Future Celebrity.