I'm Pretending

This isn't bothering me half as much as it really is. I'm miserable.

Lame.

So I haven't posted in a while. I had to have my appendix removed a couple nights ago and I'm still feeling pretty whack. I had to cancel my tour in Colorado so I'm sorry to all my fans there. The doctors won't let me be on the plane. I'm not supposed to work out for two weeks either. I'm going to be so fat after this...

Leave me some love.

TURKEY DAY

It was so good to see my family today. I have an event the day of the next family get together and I'm going to be missing out. That's the life though...

I'm taking a 5 day trip to Denver on Tuesday. I'm really excited. Going on tour is always a blast. I'm bummed out about flying though. Not my cup of tea.

I can finally listen to Christmas music now and not feel like a tool bag. *NSYNC Christmas album non stop now.

Twilight

Just saw the movie.

Book was better.

Any thoughts?

Never give up...

This video is the most inspirational thing I have seen in a long time. It's not so much the service that gets me, its the maturity of the boy and his advice at the end.

Thank You Perez for posting this

I Hate Jiminy Cricket

When I do something wrong, I hate that I know I did. I don't really care, but for some reason my body makes me feel guilty. I can rationalize with myself and say that I don't feel bad and I didn't do anything wrong, but that stupid part of my stomach that gets tight and makes me feel like I messed up is really ticking me off.

2nd Miley Post...

Earlier this week I was like "Hey Miley, Relax!" in regards to her interview on Ellen. Now I'm like "Hey Miley, You're so cool." I legitimately want to be friends with this girl. (Happy Birthday by the way) Her AMA performance... There was a CAR. You think this is the Grammy's Cyrus??

Check it out. It'll probably get removed soon so get on it.

She is so cool. Like, so. I can't wait to collab with her on my album.

ABC Family is Ghetto.

The movies they are showing right now are not Christmas movies. They're so fake.

25 Days of Christmas needs to begin so we can get some real holiday ishh...

Miley

Don't get me wrong. I think she's so cool.

Just watch this interview.

I can't wait

I'm being so good and not illegally downloading Brit's new album. Don't leave a comment telling me to just do it. I will not cave.

So I Saw the Sunrise

I read a lot. Every sunrise means something. I wonder what this sunrise means for me.

I thought I hated airports, but I guess I just hate flying. They really aren't that bad when you're not getting on a plane.

I'm going back to bed now because I don't really know what else to do...

This is So Weird.

I'm awake right now at a time a I usually go to bed. I have to drive my little brother to the airport and I went to bed at 10pm. I woke up on my own. So bizarre. I'm excited to see the sun rise. I haven't done that since last spring during finals week. We weren't studying, just realizing if what we didn't learn all semester.

R.I.P.

Apparently Paris Hilton and Benji Madden broke up.

Miss them...

Really?

My apartment has a half bathroom and a full bathroom. The toilet in the full bathroom broke. I don't know why but I'm freakishly good at plumbing, however this will not help in this situation. This toilet was installed with a state of the art power flush...aka it's unfixable unless the power flush company comes. I mean, I know living the dream means you have the best of everything... but did I really need a super toilet?

Anyway... resolution to the story - Toilet is out of commission for about a week. Sweet.

By The Way...

This is what I meant last post... Sometimes I hang out with the Cheetah Girls...

AM Stations Are Underrated.

"Ooh, Ah Just turn it up
We make it hot from the streets to the club
Ooh, Ah we turn it up
Como fuego, fuego"

That sums up the night. I'll add some pics in a later post for all you curious people out there...

hmm

Feeling sorry for yourself doesn't get you anywhere. Realize everything happens for a reason. A year from now you'll realize why.

I didn't want to go to the high school I went to. I applied to a different school and got wait listed. I went to my second choice and if I had went with my first, I'm sure I never would have picked up a microphone. The paths you take are meant to open your eyes, not to shut them. Re-Evaluate what's upsetting you right now. It's not that bad.

I heard a quote. Basically what it said was, yeah, there are starving children in India, but that doesn't change the fact that you're not okay. People may have it worse then you, but who is anyone to say that you don't have it bad. Good things will happen to good people.

I know you don't read this, but this is for you. I want everything to be okay. I want you to know even though I'm not there, and I pretend I'm gone, I'm still a breath away. I hit ignore when you call because I'm scared. It's easier that you stopped calling. Just remember even though you have it bad right now, and our paths split, doesn't mean I don't think about you. I don't want to compare you to the starving children in India because I know you have it worse.

Shh...

“Three may keep a secret, if two of them are dead.”
-Benjamin Franklin

annddd sleep.

I used to go see this hypnotist show in Providence every now and then. Homeboy would hypnotize me and make me sing in front of the audience. It was really funny, because the hypnotist knew I could sing, but every show, he would pretend he didn't know who I was. One time he told me I was Kelly Clarkson. I sang better then she does though...

I've been dreaming a lot lately, and I don't know why. My dreams have been crazy, almost real. That's what made me think of the hypnotist. I started writing down a dream log, but then I found an article online saying that was bad news. It can confuse the brain if you write down a dream after it happens. You won't remember if it was real or not in the future. Pretty intense, huh? Maybe I should throw away the paper I wrote last night's dream on. I don't want to think I was held at gun point when I'm 30.

(that last sentence had a misplaced modifier. it's not class though, so i can write how i want)

It's Coming.

I'm writing the next biggest pop song in the world. Be ready.